23. [video, private]

[trinities]

[ She's not allowed to tell anyone but she needs to get it out somehow, so Haro's recording her rushing around her room tossing clothes into a duffel bag and half-singing cheerfully ]

No more school, no more school ever! No more stupid trees out the window, no stupid little kids I'm not allowed to run down on my bike! --Wait, ew, space food, I should-- [ runs out of the room for a moment and returns with a package of Oreos and a jar of Nutella, dumps them in the bag, and continues ] No more sitting around watching TV 'cause there's nothing else to do! No more target practice in the yard, I'll have real targets! No more having to get a job, 'cause I'm not...

[ Pauses for a moment, because she would have finished that 'living with Cross' and there are real things she'll miss about that-- shopping, being spoiled, getting to go anywhere she wants without worrying about secrecy-- and people, too. It's not enough for her to choose not to go, but it's enough to make her rummage in her nightstand for paper for a note to Cross, and order ] Haro, change the filter--

[ Locked to Shiro ]

Hey, Shiro? I have to tell you something.

(( Tieria's come to take her back to gundamland! Note for Cross says 'Cross: I'm going back. I've got stuff to do, and I can't tell you what it is or come to visit for a while 'cause it's classified, but if you give my room away to some other girl I'll punch you, you know I'm your cutest fake daughter ever and no way you'll find a better one! -Nena♥' ALSO I AM STILL GETTING TO THOSE PROMPTS ON MY LAST ENTRY ))

Comments

[ninelivesbaby.livejournal.com]

Yeah?

[video]

[trinities]

I have to-- I'm going back home to my world, there's stuff I have to do. And I can't leave for a while cause it's probably going to be really dangerous, and I can't have visitors either, cause we have to be really secretive about where we are. [ stops and waits for his reaction, jaw set ]

[ninelivesbaby.livejournal.com]

...haha, y'scared me there for a minute. Thought, uh, you were gonna say you were pregnant or something. Jeez.

But, no, I mean. You... you take care of yourself! Don't do anythin' stupid like gettin' hurt. Um. Yeah.

[trinities]

--What the hell? Why the hell are you so cheerful about it? What's wrong with you, do you even care?

[ninelivesbaby.livejournal.com]

Hey, I'm not cheerful, I was just laughing 'cause you gave me a scare that uh, didn't actually happen, you know?

[trinities]

Are you seeing some other girl on the side or something, is that it!? I'll kill you if that's it!

[ninelivesbaby.livejournal.com]

What?! No!

[trinities]

Then what are you talking about, a scare that didn't happen? I figured you'd get pissed or upset or whatever but I figured you'd at least care, you're being a total jerk!

[ninelivesbaby.livejournal.com]

You know, that's pretty fucking awesome coming from you.

[trinities]

Oh yeah? What's that supposed to mean?

[ninelivesbaby.livejournal.com]

Forget it.

[trinities]

Tell me! Don't say something like that and then say forget it, that's just being a coward!

[ninelivesbaby.livejournal.com]

I don't know, you seem pretty fuckin' chipper about the situation. No harm in followin' suit, right?

[trinities]

You're the only person I'm even telling, you jerk! You and Cross and I'm writing him a note! I'm not supposed to even be telling anyone at all!

[ninelivesbaby.livejournal.com]

Well, gee, thank you so much for telling me.

[trinities]

What am I supposed to do, say 'no thanks, I don't want to go home'? This is probably the only chance I'm going to have, you know! And it's not even like I'm leaving for good or I can never see you again, we just need to be careful until the stupid manhunt stops!

[ninelivesbaby.livejournal.com]

The fuck do you want from me, Nena? I try and be happy for you, you call me all kinds of shit. And now that I'm pissed off, that's wrong too? What do you want me to say?

[trinities]

I don't know, I'm all messed up now! I've never had to say goodbye to anyone and I figured people were supposed to be sad, but I don't want you to be 'cause being sad sucks balls and I don't want you pissed at me and I don't want you to act like you don't care and-- I don't KNOW!

[ninelivesbaby.livejournal.com]

I don't fucking know either, so cut me some goddamn slack!

[trinities]

Fine! So-- so neither of us know and-- and this really fucking sucks!

[ninelivesbaby.livejournal.com]

Sounds about right.

[trinities]

And it's even stupider because even though you're-- even though we're fighting I'm really going to miss you, you stupid jerk!

[ninelivesbaby.livejournal.com]

Whatcha talkin' about? You'll be back home, with all your friends and y'robots and stuff. Ain't gonna have time to miss me.

[trinities]

What friends? Tieria's-- well, Tieria-- I dunno about Tieria but whatever he is he's a total hardass, and I don't think Feldt even knows how to talk-- and Miha-nii's not there yet, and-- and you're not going to be there so I'm going to miss you, why wouldn't I!?

[ninelivesbaby.livejournal.com]

I don't know. I don't fuckin' know.

[trinities]

Well, I will. So if you hate me now just tell me, 'cause I'm not going to waste time missing someone who hates me.

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[ninelivesbaby.livejournal.com]

I don't HATE you, Nena! Godfuckin'dammit, you stupid broad, I don't hate you. I...

[ninelivesbaby.livejournal.com]

I love you.

[trinities]

Well-- well I love you too, you jerk! And it's scary!

[ninelivesbaby.livejournal.com]

...you'll come back, right?

[trinities]

Of course. And I can still come on the community and all, and then soon as it's safe I'll come to see you again for real first thing.